1.23.2025

Finally getting started on this website has been something really fun and cathartic for me, in a time where I need that sort of time consuming hobby to get myself to stop worrying that my friends hate me or something. HAHA I know that's an insane thing to start off with, but it's been a really big worry! I know that it's not true, but... sometimes, it feels like it may be.

I think I just need to properly come to terms with the fact that we aren't always going to be hanging out every night, especially when our interests aren't currently aligned. It's hard to think about when it's a habit I've gotten myself into, but I think alleviating that by spending time with other friends instead may help... spending time with people who I haven't in a while is good for me anyways LMFAO.

Things have been really rough for me, lately. Since September really, I think? They're getting better, slowly, but shit just keeps fucking happening and slowing down my progress and it's really frustrating. Trying to figure out the nuances of moving on my own, the shit with the government going on right now (fuck that imperial orange motherfucker) is also really upsetting, and my own mental state being in the trash right now is making this uphill struggle even steeper. At least, I think that the new job I'm getting for the last few months I live here may help. I don't think working nights was ever for me.

This doesn't make a lot of sense if you don't know all the context, I think. I don't really care. I don't really expect anyone to even be looking at this section anyways HAHAHA not that I mind if you do. I wouldn't put this on my website if I did! But for those of you who are reading this, Hi, hello :)!! Just for you, I'll talk about something a bit lighter. (Also, because I just want to yap.)

I've been getting really big into Ace Attorney, lately! I haven't played any of the games yet, but I've been watching playthroughs of the first trilogy, and watching my friend play Apollo Justice sometimes after work (we call it trauma bonding. what the hell happens in these games!!!) Funnily enough, for both of these trilogies, I didn't even start in the beginning... In Apollo Justice, I got sat straight in the middle I think? Because my friend already had progressed in their playthrough and I didn't want to make them start all over. In the original trilogy, I started pretty much at the end actually, with Trials and Tribulations, because there was a very specific pair of characters that drew me into this series in the first place and I wanted to see them!! It was absolutely worth it, actually. The first case I ever watched was the Stolen Turnabout, where I encountered the Delites that I started the series for, and met and fell in love with Godot, who was a very welcome surprise. I thought Miles Edgeworth was supposed to be the main prosecutor, at that point!

That first case was really fun though, and I think a really good place for me to start, even if it was a wild one. And also in the middle of the series. It motivated me to get more involved and watch more playthroughs, and I basically consumed the entirety of Trials and Tribulations and the other necessary cases I needed to watch for context to understand my Ultimate Goal: Bridge To The Turnabout.

Ohh, and I'm so glad I did. Bridge to the Turnabout was a proper masterpiece that I haven't stopped thinking about since I first watched it, and if it weren't for the extensive length (8+ hours!!!) and the fact that I have other cases to finish watching now, I would go back and rewatch it. Over and over again. It's like when I first watched Howl's Moving Castle, rented from my local library, and I stayed up in the living room to watch it 4, 5 times before I was finally satisfied enough to go to bed. I'm the type to get fixated on a media like that, a specific part of a media even, and it's really showing itself here. Bttb was so fucking good. I'll have to watch the anime version of it when I have the time, but I think that's a plan to complete with my friend who also wants to watch the anime.

Ugh. For a moment when writing this, I was so caught up in the wonders of Ace Attorney and Bridge To The Turnabout that I blissfully forgot that I have to get ready for work in 3 hours. Can I please get a regular job?! I hate working at night!!! Or just live my best unemployed life... I wish I could just sit around and draw all day... q-q